5 years
ALL of 2022, 2023, 2024, 2025 and here we are almost 5 months into 2026.
5 years of gaslighting, manipulation ,lies, abuse and betrayal.
Over 3 years ago I decided to make this website AND logo to help my boyfriend, to surprise him on his birthday because I loved him so much and he played the poor-me card so well as if he lived under a rock with no healthy human interaction his entire life before me..I wanted to give him the world. He never had money although lived in my house for free. MUCH to my surprise, I found out it was because he was still paying for his ex's car insurance, among other things (despite me asking for years and no..this isnt a "in lieu of child support deal", no kids with that one and the actual one he doesnt pay support to either.), and sending $200 bouquets of flowers to said ex along with others..even on his own birthday..yes..while I was building a website and designing a logo, he was busy doing secret flower deliveries to people other than his partner...charming. (Still not sure why ex's would want flowers on HIS birthday), oh and also paying strangers and old "flings" and "other supply" for dirty videos and pictures that he kept hidden in secret folder(s) on his devices, yes..multiple devices..and multiple folders. He also thought it was appropriate to send videos and pictures out and ask prostitutes online to have #*& with him. Nothing new to his ex's, they already went through it all. Silly me believing he would actually change.
I was sickened and saddened to the core. He did the song and dance that he was ALL-DONE and changed and wanted to be the best man he can be for me. Claimed driving into a tree at high speed would be the result if I didnt take him back.
He decided to surprise me by getting my name put on the passengers door of the truck. He thought it would help reassure me that he wasn't doing those things anymore and that everyone could see he's with someone so I wouldnt worry... he messaged 'all' the females and told them he's been cheating on me and it wont happen again and blocked them all..you know..it really looked like he was 'trying' ..(to someone who was traumatized and abused and conditioned to think that was heroic of him)...Oh My my my... ( and no he didnt message all of them and stop.. he'd just later re open those same wounds again )
Que in the self help books and therapy and doctor visits.
Each year despite him claiming he's changed, resulted in the same sickening betrayful behaviours. When confronted, is when the emotional, verbal and physical abuse would happen.
He'd come up with 'false senses of safety' for me such as:
-Putting my name on the passenger door of the truck. EXCEPT he'd later strategically park so the name isnt road side visible. How heartwarming.
-He thought it was a good idea to put a password on his app downloading to 'keep him from downloading all the inappropriate apps'. EXCEPT he had other devices and would use other people's devices...quite the determination huh? A sickening insight to how he operated in every relationship before me, with me and still does.
-He thought putting his location on and installing a tracker in the truck so I can see he's not in inappropriate places (example: still stalking his ex) would help. EXCEPT, he'd shut them off, unplug them and leave his phone elsewhere while continuing to do the same shi*
-He purchased silicone men's wedding bands from Amazon, to wear while he was out, to reassure me he wasn't messing around or appearing single. Silicone so he wouldnt have to take it off while working. In his words " I never take it off except for one time it fell off while we were on the phone and I was using the chain saw " EXCEPT I would question him if he was wearing the ring, while over the phone, I'd hear him jostle in the change compartment. Especially right before we were going to meet up as well. Same jingles. Uh huh... QUE into the photo online recently posted by a female coworker of his..of him and her nestled close and OOPS no ring. Hmm?
-Access to his phone/phone calls/banking etc that he thought would show his innocence. Oh boy...he thinks he's something smart since I was so patient and giving him chance after chance.
Because once you breach the trust, you have to now be transparent, open and honest..much like how it shouldve been the whole time..right?
(I'll dive into each year later), but lets keep focusing on this year, most recently..
I kept questioning him about obvious signs of betrayal STILL happening... you know...•extra hidden devices, •not wearing the ring, •odd weird shi* happening at his workplace. •Him crying saying he had no money for gas and was 3 truck payments behind. The truck company calling me to tell me he's behind. •The overwhelming feeling that Im now some 'dirty little secret' who can only text my BOYFRIEND of THIS long at certain times when we're not together???Especially when we're trying to recoup from all the abuse and betrayal HE has done??
He said "check my banking I havent been buying or spending money on anything I shouldnt, Ive changed, you're the only one who hasnt seen the change in me...everyone else has!" "You're failing to see the change in me and you're failing to move forward and leave things in the past" --May I add, these things I was trying to 'work through' was a new scar on my face from him, him with multiple criminal charges towards me, and multiple other women, an ankle monitor, probation,as he's serving a community jail sentence while trying to convince me that he's had a 'come to Jesus' revelation that he wants to finally treat me right. 'You'rethe only one who has never deserved any of this treatment, you're the only loyal girlfriend I've ever had that didnt cheat on me and that truly cares about me on all levels'....sigh....
Come to find out, he was using cash to go buy Pre-paid credit cards, using other devices such as the one at his work to go on Amazon GUEST to make purchases (all so I couldnt see it, and he appears innocent) , to the tune of $850.00 (and thats just what I found out about, rest assured, theres plenty more)
When I questioned him, he said his MOM needed soap and shampoo...hmm....You really want to throw your poor mom under the bus and into this shi$? Soap and shampoo huh? why couldnt you do that on our amazon account? Better yet, why wouldnt you just deliver it to her or have me? and why? well that's because it was another sickening, embarrassing, narcisstic lie just like all the others. When I asked him about why he was paying for someone else's phone bill and what other secret devices he has now..he blamed it on a male co worker...said he's paying his bill..and this male co worker must've ordered the 'GOOGLE future baby app' too so you guys could see what a future baby would look like together huh? Act your age. Straight up delusional...just like when I asked why you're purchasing movies and for what device because there's zero history here?..movies that WE get for free and are included on prime?..Now you see me?
🤓🧐 fishy fishy 🐟 🤔
Is that why you wanted to hurry up and fix your room up at your dad's and his bathroom despite including me with it all? So you could try to impress moley mustachio without me knowing? 🤡
**reminds me of in 2022 when I asked him why he had TINDER on his phone as well as all the other dating apps, he told me a male co-worker used his phone while at work, the same co-worker who 'caught an STD' while on said work trip and thats why telus-health online Dr. visits were done on his phone... we soon discovered that wasnt true.
**But good try.**
He tried to tell me it was a group effort with everyone to buy a co-worker some crap because she moved back to the PHILLIPINES (funny tho, she was still in town during these all specific purchases, he told me she moved back to the Philippines in October 🧐..but miraculously she did wind up with a bunch of gifts in October too..hmm a sort-of half truth coming out you were also a part of? ) ..the same co-worker he says he doesnt talk to, the same one he calls 'moley' , the same co-worker where miraculously the 'one time' he didnt have his ring on at work was when they were taking photos together because he was 'cleaning'..no fool, you were posing for photos. He claims he got her a bracelet.. "it was just a cheap stupid bracelet, why are you making a big deal? see this is why I dont tell you anything because you just overreact" Ew, just degrading embarassing behaviour from a GROWN A** MAN.
It wasn't 'just a bracelet', this loser was and IS trying to lovebomb hard. **And dont for a second think he isnt still trying with me** You will learn the hard way!! 😚
And you sir, shouldn't be purchasing ANYTHING for another female that isnt me unless it's one of our family members. 'Bracelet' or not.. Come to find out, the stuff he's actually sending her, confessing his 'love' for her.. you sick and twisted fake fuc*. Hurtful evil minded to the core. 💔
I wanted the truth, I wanted transparency, I wanted loyalty. Because this crap has gone on for FAR too long. Not to mention, despite me taking him back and willing to work with him after throwing me around and putting me in the hospital on another occasion, he STILL was stalking his ex..could you imagine that poor women, who would've thought after that long of her ex being with someone else (it was 4 years at that time)...would she think he'd be in her windows night after night at 1 and 2 and 3AM etc. Actually the month leading up to when he got caught, I had someone reach out to her to let her know that he is still actively doing it because I KNEW he didnt change and BOY was he upset with me, just recently in one of his rants, he was yelling about how much of a 'stupid cun* Iam (typical disgusting name calling he likes to do) because if I wouldnt have warned her, he could still be doing it and wouldnt have ever got caught..... Lovely....
Anyways, despite him calling me names every 3rd sentence, he'd also tell me how much he loves me, and that there's 'No one else...there hasnt been anyone else, I dont want anyone else but you, you are my everything' ..those actions and words dont jive together. Especially when Im being lied to straight to my face and this handy dandy thing called gut intuition and intelligence sinks in. So what have you been telling everybody? That we werent together when we were?
Sick 🤢Sick🤢 Desperate idiot.
The alarm signals were going off heavy despite him trying to tell me the "sky isnt blue and what is happening isnt really happening."
Simultaneously at the end of January 2026 while he is telling me how much he loves me, kissing me all over ; he starts changing the passwords to everything so I cant question him let alone see anything. But also yelling at me to DROP the charges that the police had laid on him for a few different occasions, including stalking his EX.. 🤨 because he wants to come home. Avoiding accountability at it's finest. Avoiding maturity and avoiding ownership. A relationship is a 2 person task.... Preferably the two people that are IN the relationship... right?
You really want me to let you back in my house with scars on my face and body from you and you STILL cant be loyal let alone respectful to me?
You couldnt even work at tim hortons 'fixing' coffee machines without finding your next victims behind my back. Sicko.
🎉HOT TIP: we shared a bed, my home and family and even had the phones linked and this idiot STILL found ways to be a disloyal disgusting dog..just like in every other relationship before me and...oops he still is! 🎉
What really creeps me out is one time this gay guy asked right infront of me if he'll get to see him again later that night as well 🥴 ( I'd confront him about betrayal, he'd throw a fit and go sleep in the parking lot because I dont need temper tantrums in my house ) Clearly something more was going on in these parking lots besides him 'sleeping' and the other things I found out about such as: leaving to stalk his ex, creep girls online and do disturbing acts in public. Oh and that wasnt the only time a MALE had spilled information either.
And of course..the sad sappy 'boo hoo childhood trauma' scapegoat would resurface. Soo.. off to the psychiatrist we'd go 🚗..then the family Dr because he tried to blame the meds for his abuse towards me. (Although it was happening before the meds as well) We'd switch dosages, wash~rinse~repeat. 🎪🤡
So instead of addressing the nasty crap he has NOT changed, (Pro Tip: It doesnt matter how many times you say "Ive changed" ..it doesnt make it real, nor convinces the other party..Actions gotta match words..c'mon now..thats child knowledge....) Instead of addressing his own actions like a man of his age, he thinks a delusional story would help..cold discard me and act like I dont exist (while youre busy trying to play off like you're a decent human being to new unsuspecting victims) only to grace me with your presence like the creep you are with an impromptu 'lets stalk her and her daily routine' so you know where to find me All of February 2026...and all you've got the mentality to say is 'clearly you've been engaged the whole time to someone else'...
I for one am mind blown..(sarcasm) guilty conscience much? Every single time you've accused me of doing something, its actually a confession of your own doings.
✨️Narcissist facts 101✨️ BUT :please tell me who it is because Ive been obviously treating this poor other phantom guy wrong and need to apologize..
"All I wanted was some time to myself to work on myself for a bit and you went and got engaged to someone else? I guess you're just like the rest of them. I guess you didnt love me like you said.." ---He was clearly spiraling and de-lu-lu as F#$!. 🥴
But, No Pinocchio, great timing though right? I confront you about STILL actively cheating on me and you run like the little coward you are and say you need some space to think about things? All for you to just circle right back to me when its convenient for you? And you don't know how to 'be alone' , you are a glorified house hopper, partner juggler, porch jumper. You were not 'working on yourself' and its crazy, the demands of the relationship were too daunting for you..I tell you 'I feel like somethings going on you're not telling me about...' = you lose your mind on me and tell me how stupid/pathetic/annoying I am because I want truth..I thought you were done with the infidelities, affairs, nasty sick perverted behaviours and disrespect..You worked so hard to have me convinced we were BOTH being loyal in this relationship and not just me. You'd apologize after every ignorant outburst and blame it on your mental illnesses you wont take meds for, and tell me how I dont deserve any mistreatment and you love me OH SO MUCH then the wind would change directions..or Lavigna would be working and BAM, back to your evil shi* towards me if you're near Tim Hortons where she is.
One night you're all 'There's my baby!! Hi sweetheart!!' Kissing me, the next night you're ' what are you doing here? I told you not to come here' and try to walk past me like Im a stranger..and you didnt think I'd point it out? I'd even say things like 'So who's working tonight that you're trying to put on a show for? Obviously someone that WASNT here lastnight...?' 'WHO are you trying to act loyal to? Because it surely doesnt feel like ME, your partner.' 🙄
GrOw Up.
It amazes me how much you dont let things like.. truth and reality damper your storybook fables you try to sell me.
Fool... Trust me, I dont lack the character and core morals and values like you do. I stayed through ALL the times I should've ran, you dont get to question my loyalty.
Just recently he told me he wanted to get a biblical cross sticker to put on his truck, I pointed out that his bible app he has had for years,( it was a good boy front with all his past relationships) doesnt do much unless you're actively being a better person and trying. I was once again reminded how much of a stupid cun* Iam.
*Tisk tisk* Mother f*****, you shouldn't make a mockery of Our Maker.
Another embarassing conversation, the guy tried to tell me a joke and I didnt laugh...he asked me why I dont laugh at his jokes anymore and that other people do (Oh do the others laugh?lol).. yup..sadly it was a recycled, butchered rendition of the same joke I had told him just days before.. yikes.. of course Im not laughing at that..you're a fraud and you dont even know who you're talking to half the time. Reminds me of when you screwed my most recent birthday up with one of your ex's.
I was on the phone with him, he told me he bought a poor old lady a coat at the store, so if I wonder where that money went, that's where...oh he had a whole scenario planned out, quite the mastermind huh? And no buddy, it isnt a flex to be a psychopath who thinks he's spinning believable stories on a whim.
✨️ I hope you realize that NOTHING GOOD comes out of entertaining a taken man, you are not the prize, and neither is he. •You are not the 'one'. •This is not a happily ever after for you.•Need I remind you he's still trying to smooth shi$ over with me?..like still.. as in all these days including..today? Oh..right, better time stamp this (this particular paragraph was typed/altered in): June 2026 FYI✨️
So what type of 'God fearing' women who KNOWS a guy is taken, does this? One that blocks you online so you don't see all the shi# that's really been going on. SHAME on you sis. That's as ugly as they come.
You see...I'm a girl's girl, not ONE bone in my body would ever crave someone else's partner..and you cannot say you didnt know about me...Ive been here the WHOLE mother effing TIME..he even superglued photos of us inside the truck..and I actually believed he was 'trying to prove to me'...
I'm well aware at how strategic and manipulative and deranged he is (remember..5 years experience, I was forced to become Dora the Explorer, Inspector Gadget, you name it and a Saint on Earth to believe in potential and benefit of the doubt and see the good in him through the murky as$ shi# puddles he created) but no, there's no denying you didnt know. It really shows how sick some people are. He lies to his own momma, don't for a second be so ignorant to think you're anything different. Talk is cheap..words are easily spoken, not meant...and Dear God , is he really throwing the L bomb around and you're thinking it's sincerity? C'mon...do you really lack that much respect for yourself chic? It takes nothing to send some glass flowers and bullshi$ 'sentimental' things through amazon, I've got a house full! You should see all the Christmas presents 🎁 I got this year too! And even since then 😘.
This is how he's operated his whole life, ask any of the others! Hes actually lacking a true personality of his own and is lame and just tries to mirror his target. I've asked HOW could someone be like this or do this to others, and I thank God everyday that I don't understand it because it's sick Jezebel spirit shi! and you decided to join in?..But dont worry, God sees and God saw-God hears and God heard it all, even when Im not there.
Here's another brain buzzer..he would bring home plenty of different drink tumblers from work, brand new..for me and the kids to use. And Im talking RECENT new inventory here. All of a sudden this grown man has a new tumbler that says "Youre awesome!" --or something along those pathetic lines. He claims he 'bought it in the check-out line at Canadian Tire and thought it was black and didnt think it had writing...'
Uh-huh, nevermind the plethora of options that dont have childish quotes on them which are better suited for a grown adult male trying to run a side business....OR..hear me out, it might be outlandish buttttttt.. How about get another one from your work for yourself. Seems like it was some sort of gift from a certain someone, dont you think? And when the piece of shi* lid broke..he thought he had better go on Amazon and buy 2 more lids just incase..instead of just getting a new one or using one of the many we already own.. seems like an awful lot of work to appear genuine to a side piece.. pathetic.
The 1 Just Out Airing Truths
